My truth. My life. My way.

I have one life. We all do. What happens in the hereafter, I do not know and I have faith in that it will be ok.  I need to focus on what is happening in the life that I am present in. This one. Right here. Right now.

Is it real?
Is it honest?
Is it Me?

The people I meet. The places I go. The things I think, say and do. Its a one time deal. No take-backs or do-overs. We can evolve and change along the way. We can grow, learn from experiences and make better decisions each day. We may fumble, fall and make mistakes along the way. That is ok. That is part of life. Part of the journey. You cannot make the same mistake twice. If you do, then its a choice. Not a mistake. Mistakes are ok. Hopefully they don't hurt anyone: just as long as there were no cruel intentions when you make them. Life happens. Pick up the pieces and move on.

Each day we are granted a new start. We often take it for granted. I know when I wake up I should be grateful for the new day. I often am and say a prayer. yet most often then not, I'm a crabby- morning person that is NOT fun to be around. And this is just me. Alone. I do NOT like myself in the mornings. Its just my mental framework. I wake up horrible. After I get my coffee or whatever I need to do, I go wake up the kids. And I always do my best to wake them up with a smile on their face. I often succeed. They grin. Smile. Giggle and wake up in a good mood. Some mornings may be long but they do wake up "happy." They say that is one of their favorite things about me.  A memory they have of me that I always do that for them. So....  there puts my first challenge to myself... why can't I do that for myself?  Wake up happy? What am I doing wrong?

This new mantra of mine." My truth. My life. My way. " Starts in a a few places. A blog. Friends and family.  Some of the social media networks. ( Facebook, twitter to name a few) I need to focus on me. My life is busy. I am raising 4 wonderful children in a crazy, face-paced world. I want to slow it down a little. An hour a day for me is not a lot to ask. Just to mediate, reflect  or observe ME. Who am I now and what do I want. Why am I doing the things I do and are they going to enable to allow me to have a better life. Emotionally and mentally?

Its going to take a while for me to learn how to calm my thoughts, questions and ramblings. Its going to take patience for me to learn how to translate it onto this virtual outlet.

I may succeed at times and fail at others. No worries. Its just part of the journey.


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