Where I should be....

The Sea. A boat. A deep sea fishing rod. The beautiful blue sky.... this is where I should be......


Not home bound from a blood clot and a mini stroke! Seriously! Are you kidding me? I'm 35!! Its not possible. Yet, here I am!

OK. The picture may throw you off but its a better picture then me laying in a hospital bed! It wasn't pretty! I'm been pondering setting up a bed2bed salon service at the hospital. I would be racking it in! 5 days and no one to do my hair! Come on, already!

OK ...... getting serious here..... it did happen. Out of the blue. Two days of the worse pain in my right arm. Nothing made sense. By 3am in the morning, after crying for 3 hours straight, I hightailed it to the ER. Of course, I don't look like I'm in any serious condition.... but by the time they did the ultrasound on my arm.... I knew every ER doc and the nurse! They were running into my room! It was serious! I really didn't believe it. By this time it was almost noon the following day and I had no sleep and no pain meds. They did some CAT scans and send me home with meds. Cranky did not even begin to describe my mood.

Got home, took a 4 hour nap, woke up... then all hell broke loose! Husband tells me the right side of my face was "dropping" and my speech was slurred. I got up and was walking into the walls when I was aiming for a straight line. BAM! Off to the ER I go again!

They did 4 days worth of testing. Anyone who tells you being in the hospital will allow you to get some rest! I think not! Being awoken every hour for something or another. More tests, more blood work... * you know they took 15 vials of blood in one sitting!!* I was like. : Ma'am... I 'd like you to leave some blood in me so I can stay alive." She started cracking up and I was DEAD SERIOUS!. I wasn't laughing.

Now I'm home. Under house arrest to be more clear. I feel pretty good. A little 'balloon head' kinda feeling but otherwise I'm better. Got physical therapy coming to the house 3x a week to get my right leg moving again with more power. I need to be able to drive! She says I'm doing good. Shes tough and funny. Perfect combo to get me doing all those exercises.

So.... after all of this,............. Its a huge wake up call! For me. To start taking care of myself. I don't do a very good job of that. I'm always taking care of the kids or the husband. And things have been so crazy for the past couple of years, that I really threw myself under the bus and let everyone just run me over! Well, No More! I'm gonna worry about me for a while. I have to. I have done everything for everyone else except me. My kids need me alive. My kids need me happy. There are going to be some big changes around here.

Now, where do I start?

Been A While.....

Howdy!~

I thought I'd drop a line here in case anyone does drop by. Haven't posted in almost a year. I will be posting again soon.

I've actually been having more time to sit on the computer and read other peoples blogs. I have been getting on Facebook and following blogs that are of interest to me. Its overwhelming I confess. My head is full of so much that I want to share... I don't know where begin. The internet is full of so much about web designs and blogs.... that I'm trying to learn how to do it all and what to post. Bear with me... I'm learning. I do hope you come back time and time again as I navigate the blog world yet again!

My earlier post showed that I have a baby who was born with a heart defect. Life has been hectic since then. I have not had the mental time to write and post. I wanted to share that he is doing well. He will be 1 at the end of the month! Its been almost a year! Its honestly a blur........

He had open heart surgery at 14 hours old. He was in the hospital for over a month and come home with a feeding tube ( NG) He has a small bit of other medical issues but is overall just a happy baby! I will post more information about his medical issues....but honestly I just wanted to kick myself in the butt and POST SOMETHING!! Get myself started and then take it from there!

I have ordered a few books online and they are being delivered.... books about heart defects. I will start reading them and posting little bits along the way about what I learn. I also have been meeting people online that are involved in CHD awareness. I'm reading, learning and relating with them. It gives me peace of mind to know that we were not alone in what we went through. It also gives me great sadness that there is not enough awareness of heart defects. I knew NOTHING about CHD till I delivered my baby boy. And I had to learn FAST! Having his open heart surgery at 14 hours old.... give me no time to understand anything that was happening. It truly is a blur. I am still having issues with what happened. Now that we are coming up to his anniversary/birthday..... the memories are coming back. Its not easy. I confess. The raw emotions are overwhelming and I'm tackling it with information, research and reaching out to others.

I say a prayer everyday for my son Jacob, my children and other heart families.

Give me time and I will be a force to be reckon'd with in the fight for CHD awareness.

As this blog comes along............ I will find my voice. I will learn about how to post information, links and whatnots. The web world is huge. I'm learning....till next time~

Little Heart Hugs~
Mia